Dreaming

Moonlit the beach damp, sand cold and softly sunken stood awaiting for the rising tide.No feelings of panic, an awareness of the bodies and their old familiar faces standing spread around the shore. Turn to look upon them and slowly the water laps up and engulfs body and mind. To the sea gazing now, head faced down into the water. Blue, clear and gentle it swept with it, no loss of breath, no fear or concern for loss of life. Stillness is felt as the water surrounding seems to ease and envelope into safety. The sensation of surprise fills the mind, no one comes, and no one helps. Is help needed at all? Head lifts out suddenly. Nudity becomes apparent, again no one around seems to notice the feelings of inadequacy. Continue to forget this awareness and walk on. Surrounded again by familiar faces in the night, comforting a stranger and begin to apologise. Someone asks, "have you done something wrong?” Consider this question. Holding a deflating globe, throw it aside and attempt to catch the past. A friend arm in arm with her younger ego, embracing the self old and new. Questioning where do I fit, with whom do I belong.

Stop chasing others, focus on the self and face the feelings inside you.